I Need Sleep

Wow, it's been a weird day-week-month-year-decade. I need to sleep. Period. I need to put my mind to rest and sleep. I need to stop by brain when I lay down on my pillow. I don't want to:

• Hear a song (any song) repeating in my head over and over and over and over
  
• Review what I need to be doing for my classes
• Think about the kid's schedules and who is doing or driving to whatever
• Worry about how messy and dusty the house looks
• Stress that I ate sugar today or that I have to lose weight because my clothes don't fit
• Be bummed that we don't have sex more than once every 10 days and be really bummed that it doesn't bother me anymore
• Flip my pillow 20 times so I can find the cool spot
• Feel scared that I am going to hell because God doesn't really care what happens to me because I am about the worst christian around and because I don't really understand how to get to heaven after years of camp, sunday school, church, bible verses
  
• Worry about money or  taking care of Rex and Nancy or Alex's ear or Austin's stomach issues or Marty's cancer
  

I Want to:

• Sleep, plain and simple. Sleep from the time I feel myself drift off to the time the alarm wakes me up
• Feel so refreshed in the morning that I can jump out of bed and work out
  
• Feel great about myself, my family, my life
  
• Never take an ambien, advil pm, or other pill so I can get a fake sense of sleep
• Feel normal